Well, lots of things happen lately. And I had been wondering a lot of things.

This year I am involved in the FOP!! Super FUN!!!! FUN TTM!!! I even got the position for OGL!!! yay!! Although the 3 days training camp for Student Leaders was very tiring but I still like it!! Gonna have lots of FUN during Orientation!!
I will be meeting the freshmen on the 8 of April..CAN'T WAIT!!!! hehe~~

I am just so faked. Hate myself for being like this. Kept saying
I LOVES MONEY!
But in reality sometimes or maybe MOST of the time,
I really HATES MONEY ALOT!!
I am having trouble with money again. I really hope I can stop thinking of money for just one day. Lucky I got chosen for FOP so I do not have to worry about my breakfast,lunch and dinner since I can get free food during Camp. When I ate breakfast on the SOH Camp, I was wondering, how long has it been since the last time I had my breakfast and also did have proper meals for the whole day.
It has been a very very long time.

Lucky Me~~ Gonna have free meals during Orientation & Camp^^

New Semester is starting soon but I do not have enough money to pay the school fees. My friends is planning on gathering again. I really wanted to go but I can't. No money! I really hate it when my friends start to talk about the 'Bank" money! I really hate it!! And when you start talking about it, means you still don't understand me. Cannot touch means cannot touch! Why can't they understand??? I am really in a very big crisis!! I just act nothing because I can't just tell them everything right?? For those people who had been in the same situation as me I thought they would understand. But no...maybe their crisis was that they do not have their allowance or etc. But mine is totally different!
Who the HELL would want to go out to have fun when his/her family is having a difficult situation.

To say the truth, when people say that going out with friends to have fun is worth. But the problem now is that I WON'T BE HAPPY WHEN I GO OUT WITH U GUYS! is not that i don't like you guys or I don't want to go out with you guys. Like what I had said just now, I really want to go out with you guys and have fun, and I also misses you guys a lot. But when the moment concern of money...haiizzz
Even if I am with you guys, you see I am smiling actually inside I am
tearing myself apart.

I cannot stop myself to think of money every single day. Is very tiring, very tiring. I really want to stop. I really want to give up already.

SO!! NO MATTER WHAT!! I am going to try and stop myself from going out with friends and spent money!

I AM GOING TO STUDY HARD LIKE HELL!!!!! AND SCORE A GOOD GPA!!! GET A GOOD JOB!!!

AND EARN BIG BIG BIG MONEY!!! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
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